MERCHANT, Natalie


Giving up everything

Giving up everything

my hungry ghost of hopefulness

Giving up everything

not haunted by wanting this

Giving up everything

the fortune I was saving

Giving up everything

I mercy-killed my craving

Giving up everything

I've opened up my eyes for this

Giving up everything

see the whole magnificent emptiness

Gave what I want for how it is

for the stone inside and the bitterness

for the sweetness at the core of it

Giving up everything

The master plan, the scheming

Giving up everything

my cursed search for meaning

Giving up everything

the compass and the map I was reading.

The hinterlands I'm leaving

I'm finally leaving behind

Giving up everything

the big to-do, the hullabaloo

The tug-of-war for some twisted truth

For the everlasting ache of it

No longer slave, not chained to it

no gate, no guard, no keeper

no guru, master, teacher

See the slow-receding faces

dissolve to black, no traces