BERMAN, David
    
      
    
      
    
      
    Classic Water 
  
    
      
    I remember Kitty saying we shared a deep longing for
  
the consolation prize, laughing as we rinsed the stagecoach.
    
      
    I remember the night we camped out
  
and I heard her whisper
"think of me as a place" from her sleeping bag
with the centaur print.
    
      
    I remember being in her father's basement workshop
  
when we picked up an unknown man sobbing over the shortwave radio
    
      
    and the night we got so high we convinced ourselves
  
that the road was a hologram projected by the headlight beams.
    
      
    I remember how she would always get everyone to vote
  
on what we should do next and the time she said
"all water is classic water" and shyly turned her face away.
    
      
    At volleyball games her parents sat in the bleachers
  
like ambassadors from Indiana in all their midwestern schmaltz.
    
      
    She was destroyed when they were busted for operating
  
a private judicial system within U.S. borders.
    
      
    Sometimes I'm awakened in the middle of the night
  
by the clatter of a room service cart and I think back on Kitty.
    
      
    Those summer evenings by the government lake,
  
talking about the paradox of multiple Santas
or how it felt to have your heart broken.
    
      
    I still get a hollow feeling on Labor Day when the summer ends
  
    
      
    and I remember how I would always refer to her boyfriends
  
as what's-his-face, which was wrong of me and I'd like
to apologize to those guys right now, wherever they are:
    
      
    No one deserves to be called what's-his-face.